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This is CRAZY LAND.

Feb
26

The Canucks played the Sabres this afternoon at 4. Unfortunately, Vancouver lost 6-3 to the worst team in the NHL, collapsing when it was 3-3 midway through the third period. There was a Buffalo goal with 1.4 seconds left in the whole game, for fuck’s sake!


You Are Black Mamba

You are a natural born killer, but you would only kill for revenge at this point in your life.
If someone wrongs you or the people you love, you will do everything in your power to make it right again.

SUPER MARIO BROS. World 1-1 Wallpaper from Deviant Art:

Feb
26

I am still bored, of course. I’m listening to a CHRONO TRIGGER playthrough on Youtube, and the Millennial Fair just reminds me of the time on July 28, 2013 when Mike and I were walking around at the Ladner outdoor market holding hands! Now I’ve discovered the start of redrum… great.

Feb
25

Any anger management classes I would have had Mike take would NOT have helped with the gaslighting / micromanagement / INTJ personality / making things up / selfishness / being anal about time and scheduling, and I probably wouldn’t have been able to do any Facebook message chronicling with him around. What a realization of wasted opportunities! At least I had a lot of unfettered time (FREE TIME!) to edit LJ / WordPress entries today, which I might not have had during the relationship!

I’m also kind of bored, so I wish there might have been a way to reconcile, but not with these factors! I talked to Vanessa last night via FB messages about Krista and how she drove up to Hudson’s Hope to be with Ryan before they went to Mexico together, then she’d go to Chile alone. (which meant that she’d bailed on Vanessa’s bowling outing on Saturday night) Unfriending? Hmm.

“I am sick of being stuck home with nothing to do. I’ll have to make the best of it, Oh, wait. I have projects to work on!”

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THE ADVENTURES OF GROOVY SWEET, copyright 2013, Mason LeBritton: "I am sick of being stuck home with nothing to do. I'll have to make the best of it. Oh, wait. I have projects to work on!"

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Feb
24

I had noodles with enoki mushrooms for the first time since Michael and I ate them for breakfast at different times on November 25, 2014! The Canucks played the Bruins at 4 this afternoon, and it was a 2-1 win!


You Are Mike

You are a dominant and confident person… at least, that’s how you get others to see you.
Deep down, you are a lot more messed up and insecure than you seem. You just figure out how to get through the day.
Feb
24

I’ve decided to try a Plenty of Fish profile again; I don’t care if Mike’s sister Erica works for them or not, because I’ll just be another anonymous site user. I deleted mine soon after I went exclusive with Mike on 5 June 2013, although he didn’t get rid of the now-expired condoms in his bedside furniture which went bad in October 2014. I also talked to Lena via FB messages for a while; we discussed my frustration about Mike’s being anal about his precious schedule and time (especially on May 24 and July 12), his thinking I’m “obsessing” over things, his immaturity, his NOT being mature as she’d thought, his not being healthy for me ultimately, how I’d “sabotaged and ruined” his life by telling people about the breakup (what?!), and how it was a GOOD thing that he was never the biological father of Steph and Lisa’s baby! Can you imagine telling the kid, “Your biological father and aunt split up”?! That would be awkward, and I’d probably feel constrained by the biological relationship into staying with Mike. Thank goodness that I never thought Mike was serious about donating his stored sperm from the vasectomy to Steph and Lisa last July 20!

DRAGON FIRE! (I found this on Reddit)

Feb
23

I got my hydro bill (it was inexplicably $70 two months ago on 22 December 2014 – Mike and I had wondered about that) in the mail today, and despite my leaving the computer on now almost all the time for myself and NOT someone else, it is now a NORMAL amount! ($61.61 for the repeating number pattern!) PHEW! I’d hoped it would be back to normal because nobody’s around anymore to leave random lights on, or open the bedroom window (or the balcony / patio window) and “heat the outside” while he sleeps since it’s “too hot” in here. Mike said it didn’t have anything to do with his client Jane’s computer, but I don’t know about that. At least he paid me back a dollar instead of a quarter for the electricity that it drew. To be more accurate, he knocked off a dollar from whatever I’d owed him. Since I was disgustingly productive yesterday, I’ve earned some rest this week! I also made the EMMA gnocchi and ate it like Michael and I did with the Splendido gnocchi for the last time together on November 28.

Yeah, like MICHAEL! :(

Mandy Tom wonton!

Feb
22

I went to London Drugs to get laundry detergent (I needed to replace it whether or not Mike saw or touched the bottle) and pub glasses (last bought on 26 August 2014) since one of mine is ruined with hair and such on it. While there, I discovered a fortuitous sale on store brand light bulbs (last bought on 5 August 2014), so I got four boxes for $1.50 each as opposed to $2.80 each! The Gain Original laundry detergent was on sale at $3.99, and the pub glasses were $1.20 each; I got home at 7:15 on a 407, which was surprising!

Feb
22

I went out to Price Smart at 11:40 AM to get (vanilla) Krema Greek yogurt x2 for the first time since 10 July 2014, and dryer sheets (August 5, 2014) because Mike had seen or touched them while he was here. (I know…) I’d forgotten about those items recently! 120 Mountain Rain Western Family store brand sheets were $5.99, which is fine; $20 in cash was enough money for my purchases! I was VERY lucky at #3 and Westminster because I saw the 407 preparing to make a turn when the light changed, but I managed to make it to the London Drugs bus stop just in time, so I got home at 12:10 instead of way later!

I showered and started the laundry (both uncharacteristically early) before the Canucks played the New York Islanders at 3 today. Eliza Storrie wanted to add me to Facebook again – okay, then. In the game, both Ryan Miller and Luca Sbisa were injured! The game was a 4-0 Canucks win for a rare double shutout (featuring a last-minute empty-net goal by Weber) – it was the first one for Vancouver since 2011!

Ashlei, with a bonus ghetto name of Deshawn:

Christal, which reminds me of Christal and Wilson Lok:

Feb
21

Another reason why we wouldn’t have worked out: Mike SAID that I could come up with ideas to do whatever, but his ideas seemed to take centre stage. Never mind if it was La Belle Patate (his idea) instead of my idea of L.A. Grill, even. This was showcased in the MULTIPLE times that he tried to change other people’s plans for them! Never mind his hypocrisy in blaming me for everything towards the end, whether he was overloaded with stress or not. He couldn’t deal with any stress at all. At least we did manage to go to Steveston Village on 10 September 2013 on my say-so, and not Lombardo’s as he was thinking! (actually, we never did go there…) Too bad the ladybug which I saw on a separate trip there on Sept. 16, 2013 only provided good luck for about a year…

Martin and Natalie picked me up at 2:35, and we were off. Natalie loved the Ziploc bag full of Sweetarts and candy conversation hearts (her favorite among 5000 different kinds of candy as per Martin’s joke), which was great to hear! Martin jokingly called Natalie “roadkill,” which she took exception to. Yeah, I would have been spending time with my nephews, but not today, as I got up at 10 AM! We saw a sign for Valu-On Liquor Store, so I asked Martin if he’d ever been there. Nope, so I told him about all the interesting vodka flavors in the store when my ex and I had gone there once last April 30. When we got to church after picking Thomas up, I found Margaret / Jinny / Reigan / Nina / Lawrence / Andrew busily painting a bunch of wooden cars for the Sparks Grand Prix to be held at 5 in the parking lot. They talked about Skype / music on Spotify / a “watermelon or Christmas” car / paint colors.

Since I will seize any opportunity to leave early (especially when Auntie Vivian isn’t here), I did so. I said hi to Cousin Wilson, discussed the Awana dues and change with Gabriel and Sabrina, greeted Henry, tried to figure out what to do with Home Depot and Costco receipts, sorted out the Awana snacks (Kirkland chewy chocolate chip granola bars) and signed the clubbers in. Uncle Eugene asked if I’d received my AGM notice, and encouraged me to attend tomorrow; I didn’t tell him that the game interferes with the meeting! Mom had wanted me to invite Eric Ho to the meeting – WHY WOULD I MAKE HIM SIT THROUGH A BORING MEETING?!

Killing memory dragons, I stopped at the front of the RP Electronics shop, and then went to the nearby Superstore as Mike and I had done last September 1. Yes, those digital price tags were still there, and they were as confusing as ever! After buying EXACT tart apple shampoo / EXACT tart apple conditioner / replacement canola oil which expires in July 2016, I went to Pho at the usual spot. I can still hear Mike telling me NOT to use the red sauce (as he did at Lotus Pho on 31 January 2014), but instead to let the broth flavors speak for themselves. Whatever! By the time I *finally* got home at 7:35 on a delayed 407, I was ready to just chill by myself. This is something I might not have been able to do if Mike were around, although he wasn’t likely to be here at this time, what with his dad Richard’s “no-notice” dinners. Jana Fraser added me to Facebook, too.

Shampoo:

Feb
21

What the heck?! This canola oil which I bought on Aug. 30, 2013 expired on November 22, 2013?! I know that Mike used it for some unpopped popcorn kernels last April 28, but then Chinese Eric and I used it for the penne on Friday the 13th just last week! I don’t think I suffered any ill effects, and I certainly hope Eric didn’t! The oil definitely doesn’t smell gross or rancid, though. Mike would always say his Darigold milk would be fine for a month past the printed date, which is fine for HIM. Still, I’d better get some more oil just in case! (maybe tonight?)

I cancelled on Jon and Harmony this morning because I didn’t feel like rushing out of the house immediately after I’d gotten up. The weather is nice and sunny now, and I would think that Mike feels better from whatever seasonal depression he might have. That wouldn’t fix any issues we had, however. Luckily, I was able to get a ride from Martin to Awana at 2:30 even if I had to bus home later! Maybe I won’t do this next year, as I’m getting too old to bus every week – boy, am I lazy! At least this won’t be out of any misguided notion that I have to save any relationship because SOMEONE likes Saturdays for crossing the border! (“the security guards are less likely to ask you certain questions about money then!”) I’ve also reminded myself of many reasons why I am not with him anymore, including his stupid assumptions / blame / rage!

Sugared pancakes and waffles!

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